Thoughts Create Things

I remember when jealousy ran my life.

I could never be happy for anyone because, why them and not me?

How did they manage to do that and I can't?

My friends would achieve things like buying a house or getting a career and I became a behind their back hater.

Looking for reasons on why they didn't deserve it like I was the one in charge of all the worthiness.

I was miserable.

I was angry.

I was a victim. I didn't understand back then anything about what I do now.

I didn't know that my thoughts AND actions were causing my pain.

I didn't realize by focusing on what I didn't have that I was attracting more of that same thing.

I thought i was destined to be punished by God or whatever was up there fucking up my life.

I thought I needed to be rich in order to be happy.

Expensive cars, clothes and houses.

I thought I needed to have status in order to be worthy in the eyes of others.

To gain their approval to validate my existence.

I had to dress like them and act like them and be one of them or I was nothing.

When my friends got new friends or hung out with other people my mind would go crazy.

Are they talking about me? Do they not like me anymore? Are they avoiding me?

My insecurity attracted so many situations just like that into my life.

People who were backstabbing and not genuine and I always got broken hearted…..

Because that's what I EXPECTED to happen.

My thoughts attracted those situations consistently

Flash way forward to now and I sit here with much gratitude to myself for finally pulling my head out of my ass to see what was really happening <3 To the Universe for the lessons it has brought forward to me and also to those who came to earth with me to assist in each others growth

Peace AND Love