Life

Life is so fucked up

I sit here looking out my bedroom window

The snow has melted the birds are chirping

All of a sudden i remember

He's gone

Quickly a wave of excitement flows through me

I can feel lit head to to toe

You know that feeling you get on a roller coaster where your tummy does a flip

Yeah that kind of feeling

But just as quickly as it comes to me its gone

It is replaced by a feeling like someone kicked me in my chest and now i cant breathe

Im alone

I am single

What am I going to do alone?

Just as i begin to tear up

I stop myself

Wait this isnt so bad…...

It sure as hell is better than what we were living

What’s scary is the not knowing

Wondering if i will be alone forever

Who the hell am I if not someones wife?

It hits me

In order to make it through this

I need to get comfortable

Being uncomfortable

I need to embrace this freedom

To allow myself to smile with the wind in my hair

The love in my heart

And

My willingness to pick up my pieces and carry on